samsam594

The pain became sane years ago. What is happiness anyways? Just a good lie, told to spread hope. I've given up on everything, so what is there to hope for? A quick ending? A cheap coffin? I dwell in this cold world, watching it tear itself apart, it is the only thing that makes me grin, watching it break the way I did. Revenge I didn't even have to try at, and at least I'm not alone in my misery. I'm bitter and pissed, all the way to the bones, the keep me pacing through this life, When will I fall to the ground, cold and dead? I've lived a thousand years at once, and died a million times in my dreams. What keeps me? I'm nothing, the dust

I felt the blow from miles away. The arrow shot right through my heart. While I tried to pretend it was nothing, the chemistry just grew and grew, and when we came face to face it became painfully clear to me, you were where you were meant to be. There was no fighting our destiny. Reality painted a better picture than I could ever have dreamt, from the moments our lips touched, you set my world right. I've never felt so sure of anything, but you can't deny, we are meant to be, Soulmates.  

There is a voice in my head, Screaming at me to be bad, And an ache in my chest, Begging me to pick up the gun. I need to feel real, I need to feel. My nerves need to dance. I want to be free, free. Danger come fine me, My brain is dying for relief. I want to jump, want to fly, I need to come down. Everything dulls around me I need excitement, a pulse. Lightening strikes me down And I burn to run and run and run the air right out of my lungs Nothing is enough for me, I'm running on empty And I can't feel a thing. Too low to come down Too low to come down.

Everything is so beautiful, suddenly, someone must have tweaked my mind. And it fills me anger, because I'm just tragic. There is darkness on my tongue What has happened to me? I feel no remorse, but I'm guilty as hell. Put the bullet in my head, I ran my race out, I'm worthless now. This pain won't get me anywhere. And at night when the moon is out, I howl for death to come for me but there are only ever owls. Reminds me why I can't ever be happy. I'm a magnet for life and all I want is to die.

Sorrow is my home. It protects me in the rain, shelters me in from the storm. Sorrow is my friend. It combs my hair, rubs my back. Sorrow is all I've ever know. It owns my soul, it ruins everything.

A genius wouldn't know any better so stop blaming yourself. This isn't the time for apologizes, this isn't the time to cry. We all did what we had to. And I'm paled face, safe in a coffin. And you feel out of place, all alone. A shadow of doubt spread to those who didn't know, but you knew me. This is the end of all you had, this is a fresh start, the one I could never get. And you tried to help, And I always felt...dead. Just another grave stone in a damp cemetery. This is my new home, this isn't your hell. And I fell so far off track and you held yourself back. Don't hold your end of our promise. (Remember me or let me go but) Don't keep

I hope you choke hanging by every word you ever said I gave you all the chances I could stand. And you just floated in my sea of sorrow, do you have no heart? Oh where to start. I believed you were an angel, my hero. And you played the part, like an award winning star. Did I bruise your ego in bed? Is that why you torn me a part. I hope it rains when they bury you, and they slip in mud and spill your rotting corpse in the street. I was nice for far too long. And you just splashed in my tears, did you even give a damn at all? Or was it a joke? I tried to be everything you needed and you were good at getting your way. Did I break your trust mo

I shiver, I shake. You are my heroin. And I know I need you, and that's why I hate you. You are everything I enjoy, my misery at it's best. And I would kill you, smash you to pieces, rip your heart apart, but that is just too dark and You are the only beauty I see, my filth sticks out beside you. You will be the death of me, slowly, and painfully, I writhe a bit, with each kiss. And there is no safer place for my heart, but in your arms You are the angel, my hell bound soul, will destroy.

There are too many noises around me. I can't feel anything, besides lonely. You touch me and I feel extincted. My bones ache like I've lived in them too long. My soul is tattered and worn. There is no silence inside my mind. I've master the act of frowning, while smiling. I'm falling but standing right in front of you. My screams shatter my hopes, but not windows. My heart beats but is made of stone. And all I ever wanted was saving. But there is nothing anyone can do for me. I've die so long ago, I'm just decomposing.

They can't wrap their heads around this sinking feeling in my chest. I strongly think I'm drowning now. Gasping for air. I'm on dry land, but my lungs are filling with something. They call if fear, I call it... I think I'm dying. I wish I knew how to swim because I think my world is about to floor. They think I'm depressed but I'm not sure I feel it. There is a hook in my arm, I'm a caught fish, food, dinner on the table for the shallow. My flesh is smoking, but they don't see it. I don't think I'm in the sea anymore... They agree I need help but their savior is as fake as my metaphors. There is a tug at my flesh, I've been here before. A d